please.sleep me.

tell me something.don't i deserve much more worst then before? or i just don't know how? a fourth-night that had me going smiling but now...i just want to sleep.please.

feel me.

most of everything we admire will always be as sweet as sugar.as it gets older it'll become much bitter.a bitter sweet symphony that is.

i believe there's always a reason for every step every movement every occasion every chapter in our movie.and i believe there is nothing wrong to be wrong in anything.life's a learning process and an amazing adventure.sounds hypocrite? pretty much yes but i don't think so.i learn more as i do more mistakes.i learn how to handle.i learn how to solve and i've been into some shits and i crawl back up.it is hard though but i know i can.as low and as slow i will be back up again.

i see you,the inner you.and i hope you are true in every words.in god.i thank the god for you to magically appeared into my life.we have skipped a big chapter and that's a risk we have to capture.we got a long way to a great vacation.there will be no more this of you and me if it is over,in a long time.i have no time to search.you have come and i hope it'll last forever.maybe hoping is just like a daydream but i know if we struggle for it,we can achieve our own history.feel my beats.i love you.

don't focus yourself to get what you don't need.

there's a moment when i feel like i was who i am before.something wonderful.something amazing.something awesome.

dear boyfriend,
i wish you are my boyfriend.

oh boy

oh boy, oh boy oh boy!
you make my heart skips a beat.
i like.hahahahahaha!

i got you baby.

i'm just a kid and life is a nightmare.

approximately...

hehe.

derpderped

a lazy day.this is something that i know everyone have.have some meals my vampire,i got blood all over.period.

everybody is different in their own ways.and i am still trying to figure out what's in their mind.fact of my life, people in public tend to stare at me and i don't even know why. is there's something up my nose? you can see through my clothes? or simply, maybe i'm invisible and they are just looking something behind me?
whatever.
needles and pains somewhere on my head, my back, my brain my tummy, my chest, eventually most parts of my body.would it be nice to have someone to care and comfort.well, probably.
whatever.
being pampered and cuddling all over.take my clothes of and make your day!
you are not there sometimes but i know i'll be finding you around and put a smile on your face.you have this horrific invisible powers that makes me wanting you or me to be wrapping up each other.burrpppp...i need to shit.

stupidity, use you brain.

the smile of my heart is not for you. the smile on my face is for everyone.

sincerely,
grandchild of a grandmother.

the fan sounded like a cricket but the mosquito that drink your blood.

you may think i am dissappearing.i don't even know if i am or maybe i'm just alone in the cottage.i am not sure.many things have made me confuse and hard to think.i don't know much but if i'm capable enough i'll try to find the answer.

they, acting.world, the biggest stage ever.
everybody got their own dark side.i might seen as something that goes around and changing minds in mil-seconds.i feel the lack of thing called love.i know i have spoken the word few times back then but it turns out, the strings are always cut off.the person who give birth to me is going crazy.sometimes i tried to think is a PMS situation but most of the time i just hear and not understanding anything.

robotic movement that i have left.i see the management is suck.whatever.
now, most of my time filled with words on papers.i started to do something to make me focus on something.the fact of reading, sometimes i only see the alphabate and keep on repeating it for most 3 days.the voice that humming shaking my head really hard.something more wonderful will be of this dark page to some slightly better ones.and it is a hand-writing mode not a typing mode.

diarrhea kills, don't have late peanut-butter-egg-toast.

the wrong assumption of a right thinking.

today i feels like it was before.i need to put this ink needle and really trying to release something.

this is common, i understand everyone or people have problems but i don't understand why they want to expose it to something or someone else.i have to hold on hurting inside.i don't see what i've said wrong.i'm just saying what i feel, what i wanted to say what's inside,but i know people all around accepting it the other way around.i'm hurt.i am wrong in anything.

now,the moment comes to an empty box.i was drunk last night.what happened mostly i remember to search for him somewhere up or down in the dark.i will and i did found him nearby.not too far not to near.it's kind of "perfect'.i remember i've seen new people again.knowing another person.this might be wrong.i don't hate only i'll be wearing that paper bag.a fact knowing a person will be known to another and it'll chained up and related.it's not i don't like it but i don't, i just don't.
f*ck everything that i've said.don't trust me.the truth is only you.you'll never understand and you'll say this is shit. FLUSH IT AWAYYYYYY.....!!

alien monster come like a wind,
chasing around and around like a scene,
you have come and go like the rain,
i will always be here waiting again and again.

vertebral displace mind

yesterday i practice something that has been few years back then.
i feel fucked up.

when it was about time, it always and always run away.finding it's hard but i still try.it's not suppose to be perfect in anyway.you are all as well not perfect like me.i don't know what i don't know why.i'm being distract by this pain.i'm in pain.ohmaigrass.

it hard now to get back to the dreamland.i miss being there being hard and easy at the same time.now, you and you are realities that trying to consume that you are all perfect in everything.i don't know what i'm saying. i'm hungry.

this stiffness behind me kills me so slowly.i don't know any position that it must be in.for a record, 3 weeks been.this post wasn't what i want to but this what she wanted to.i need a god or a doctor? god? doctor? godtor?

might is not so mighty

I don't know your face no more
Or feel your touch that I adore
I don't know your face no more
It's just a place I'm looking for
We might as well be strangers in another town
We might as well be living in a different world
We might as well
We might as well
We might as well

I don't know your thoughts these days
We're strangers in an empty space
I don't understand your heart
It's easier to be apart

We might as well be strangers in another town
We might as well be living in a another time
We might as well
We might as well
We might as well be strangers
Be strangers
For all I know of you now
For all I know of you now
For all I know of you now
For all I know

erase me from me

The red devil is out on a bright day.

When it is too heavy,I am too lazy.to call to move to eat to drink to sleep.I'm hanging on.I just want to stop.but then I'll never get those papers again.I hate when they worn the thing on their face.they smile like there's nothing.they have made money as their god.

To dearest love,
I hope you are not mad.I am so tired.help me find a way out.

I need to erase those negativity.

kring kring(incoming blank recieved)

So if you're lonely
You know I'm here waiting for you
I'm just a crosshair
I'm just a shot away from you
And if you leave here
You leave me broken, shattered, I lie
I'm just a crosshair
I'm just a shot, then we can die

I know I won't be leaving here with you

I say don't you know
You say you don't go
I say... take me out!

I say you don't show
Don't move, time is slow
I say... take me out!

If I move this could die
If I move this could die
I want you...to take me out!

I say you don't know
You say you don't go
I say... take me out!

I know I won't be leaving here (with you)
I know I won't be leaving here
I know I won't be leaving here (with you)
I know I won't be leaving here with you

I say don't you know?
You say you don't know
I say take me out

If I wink, this can die
If I wane, this can die
I want you to take me out

If I move, this could die
If I move, this could die
Come on, take me out

I know I won't be leaving here
I know I won't be leaving here
I know I won't be leaving here
I know I won't be leaving here with you

a bad dream

Why do I have to fly
over every town up and down the line?
I'll die in the clouds above
and you that I defend, I do not love.

I wake up, it's a bad dream,
No one on my side,
I was fighting
But I just feel too tired
to be fighting,
guess I'm not the fighting kind.

Where will I meet my fate?
Baby I'm a man, I was born to hate.
And when will I meet my end?
In a better time you could be my friend.


I wake up, it's a bad dream,
No one on my side,
I was fighting
But I just feel too tired
to be fighting,
guess I'm not the fighting kind.
Wouldn't mind it
if you were by my side
But you're long gone,
yeah you're long gone now.

Where do we go?
I don't even know,
My strange old face,
And I'm thinking about those days,
And I'm thinking about those days.

I wake up, it's a bad dream,
No one on my side,
I was fighting
But I just feel too tired
to be fighting,
guess I'm not the fighting kind.
Wouldn't mind it
if you were by my side
But you're long gone,
yeah you're long gone now

time for heros

it's hard.i know it is hard for you not to say anything.i wish. i am not but still i wish to see you....smile again.

the edge of forgetting is a hard and rough way to climb on.i have been through it with cuts and bruisers.all i did was trying to get away from all the traps.i found that on the top of the edge, that there's nothing that is possible to change.it may,but most of it is impossible.

the moment i reach, i fall back.i fell down hard.i drown into my own river.i am dead.i am dead but not my soul.i still fell you nearby.i am sorry.my vision has been blurred out by those two-legged things.i know you don't believe in anything but i wish that I'll see u back as a stranger that i really want to be with.again, wishing is just another option of dreaming.

i can feel you,i know you can feel me.
i know it in there.
having the same thing is a big different.
don't hurt yourself, i still want to hold on to that hand.

this is the moulded news.

washit

Today is most likely not a perfect day not for me nor him or her.

I don't see the use of being in top will make you the most wanted. Being so dumb in silent and not getting involve with anything, now that's a winner.I see that it can make you way much better. Don't trust people, trust you own god.

I am not perfect. Nobody is. And everyone lie in their words. They will never stop. I am not proud. I am relief but you are way too high to jump from that building. It between now or then.

Again,
This here is not good.I don't have the tools to make it perfect but I know something can be use. Nothing is not a thing.and now, I hang this thoughts because...........

I'm hang.

new news new news

The moment when everything went blur and silent,they'll come and hunt you someday. Soon,the day will come and make your's as a satisfaction.

I believe,there's nothing interesting in this black hole. Only that some of you are so arrogant and making all this letters looks so awesome. I know, I know that u don't know that I know.

To my dearest RW/alice,
I know I've been bad.I know you are mad.I miss you.I know you are hurt somewhere in this summer time. The sun is being so bad. I'm sorry that you get some viruses attacking you within. My apology means nothing, but I know it is something for you to make something from something.

In this cube that isn't so rubic, too much sounds that I have to deal with.this draf is a piece of shit. I'm going to get some thick fog of smoke and make this better. I know you want to.I know I know I know.

Soon,this will be your newspaper.