Friday, December 10

for the crops of the living

I did my best to notice.When the call came down the line.Up to the platform of surrender.I was brought but I was kind.And sometimes I get nervous.When I see an open door.Close your eyes.Clear your heart.Cut the cord.

Are we human? Or are we dancer? My sign is vital.My hands are cold.And I'm on my knees.Looking for the answer.Are we human? Or are we dancer?

Pay my respects to grace and virtue.Send my condolences to good.Give my regards to soul and romance.They always did the best they could.And so long to devotion.You taught me everything I know.Wave goodbye.Wish me well.You've gotta let me go.

Are we human? Or are we dancer? My sign is vital.My hands are cold.And I'm on my knees.Looking for the answer.Are we human? Or are we dancer?

Will your system be alright.When you dream of home tonight? There is no message we're receiving.Let me know is your heart still beating.

Are we human?
Or are we dancer?
My sign is vital.
My hands are cold.
And I'm on my knees.
Looking for the answer.
You've gotta let me know.
Are we human?
Or are we dancer?
My sign is vital.
My hands are cold.
And I'm on my knees.
Looking for the answer.
Are we human?
Or are we dancer?
Are we human?
Or are we dancer?
Are we human
Or are we dancer?

the king is conquering the bowl

i had nothing to do with him or her or anyone.

i wish they wouldn't asked me the same questions. but wishing is just another option to be distracted.

i know i've been so dumb.i'm numb dumb to think off anything for in this dark page i wrote what has been rejected and never came through rosewood.poor thing.i couldn't do anything.only rosewood can calm me,i guess.

i never know and will never knew what will or what had happened in the past or the future.i don't want to and i don't want to dream.those dreams bringing me some bad and good visual and physical effect through my come and go come and go come and go.i can't control any of it.they won't let me take any babies anymore.oh my sweet babies.i am so sorry.things are wasted all over the's filling in slightly in small brings some good and disturbing sight-seeing.and yet, rosewood never let me take them down.she said "it's just some colors you've created for your own sake, why throw it all away?".ok dude, you're right.i'm just going to keep filling the walls with those wasted things that have been in this red-nailed bleed-tips.they can make me smile for a moment.

something someone somewhere somehow,i don't smile like i used to. but well... :)

Tuesday, December 7

without electricity they died in stones

it all started while rosewood is having her beer.

those huge monster keep coming to her ear. she couldn't bare to hide thus the sound of the monster still coming.until the moon day, rosewood and zet having a great conversation about those bulls.they are sharing too much link too much important things.rosewood can't take those important things for her.she just can't, for now.for some, rosewood just pretend it was all okay.

i know rosewood never know how to solve her problems.she is, selfish.but i know her reaction of being a rosewood is not what she wanted.well, we all don't.rosewood is losing her abilities of human-ing things.she will never be stronger.her bones are cracked all over.her fingertips is red,and i don't even know how did it happened.rosewood is in pain.she keeps bleeding.dehydrated.swollen.puke in her bed.

i must save rosewood! she's just so RED!

the view is the picturre

silent in ignorance of distinct syndicate destruction of the function.

silent is a girl's loudest cry.
ignorance is a bliss.
distinct syndicate of anonymous stalkers.
a destruction of the function of ellis.
she loose the game again,tonight.

Monday, December 6

take a cab and go

i have something struck into my flesh of everything.

i know i know i know okay okay okay okay yeah yeah were worth for something and anything and everything.

you are none.but why worth wasting to care? thank you, anyways.oh pretty ghost, go hunt someone else.i don't need you to hunt me anymore. i have failed to give you what you need.only to feed you with food. and it end up going into a bowl of hell.

the bowl will flush away those unnecessary things needed.

Saturday, December 4

eye erection buds

i miss you so much, really. but i'm moving on. though i still wait...count one count two count three count four.this isn't a normal alphabetical order.

thank you, fog!

Friday, December 3

the prison of a rock

my eyes are much more swollen then before.i don't really have to put on my eyeliner.

the angry hungry tummy really wants to eat.the fact it can't really accept anything for it in the morning now? i see clear lights all over.or this drug abuse has taken over? i am i am i am i am burning my balls.sniff sniff this sniffing makes me fly, man.

the picture stored keeps on bursting out from the locker.i might need to find a new key.just in case,i need those pictures back at the back of the back.elbow breath whistle in the darkest hour of the day.i am still pulling the millions's kind of a habit, though.i just want to take those needles just want my nap and dreams back.

what i know is something and what i know is nothing

Wednesday, December 1

this is mentos marble

Again,I put my hands up.

I hurt myself I wound myself. I will run. I will wait for my time and run. I just need a big run. The biggest. am I too tired to faced all hitch. I am walking soon I'll be running. I'll run on my own river. The river is getting deep. I will sink in my own water. I eye aye aye aye aye yayayaayayay.

Take care.

Tuesday, November 30

no link for this.

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Sunday, November 28

end of chapter for new december

now the song had come to and'll only for minutes of time to enjoy.and enjoy!

you are now fast asleep as you are finding ways of new way for time is near.i am going for a run. a run for a life.i will leave you with love.i am running now.u can chase if you want,like it was can come and hunt me down any hour of your time.i will die someday.

this game has no ending towards forward nor careful where you are.i might some day come home.and come home to you.look how they shine.i hate the shine they have and they trying to give.i will go now.

mail me at
or how ever ways to find if you want to talk.

Draft for 2weeks.

cut the edge for yet to make it faster for the time

i know i'll end up losing. i have to fail to be right. at the end i am the one who failed on most of everything. i put up high and i'll run run run run run run run run run away.

This one's giving up on you.I don't miss giving up on you.
And there's no more time.Forgive me one more time.
Cause I do want you away.Just bury me I'm away.
Whisper warning away.Just bury me I'm away.

I can't remind you all the time bring it back.
Bring it back to where we were before.
I can't remind you all the time,no no.
Bring it back bring it back.

The day is gone the sky is blue.
I know you're all alone and the sky is blue.
Come back to me the sky is blue the sky is blue.

And we should spend some time apart for both our sakes.

the court never took me,leftovers.

from a sleepless night to come over and die by your was amazing!

i was in pain.pain from the sleepless fogged over.i may shouldn't have come.i think i surely shouldn't did.and yes that's just lies.i hope my pain and death did cure you somewhere inside there.even now we can't feel any of those anymore.i am death from your arms.

we were in silence of ignorance.

i did nothing.i was scared.i am.and i always do.i have massive adrenaline rush when something comes up.something.something.anything.anything from you.i may not say this to you.but know you's a choice only you can decide.i am sorry for being terrible.i am sorry for being mistake.i am sorry for being a prisoner.went by to see sparks.yet still silence took hold.the medicine make me left out.i went away and wake and being wrap around you.i fell in to you.cherished like a vanilla ice cream filled with chocolate syrup.

i rest my case and i hold up my hands in the air.

Wednesday, November 24

absorption of the active comfort

8.30:bzzz bzzz bzzz. "oish this mthrfckr been waking me with this halo light striking"
tenneenngggg..."bawak overnight pad".okay.

woi mr.ranger why are you calling mr.ranger? diamond eyelash? shrinngggg.take a chair have a seat man.smoke some smoke smoke smoke.yeahh..we lesboboboboboonngggonkkkk!yesterday is dim day.sound of keting ketak and come break me calling again.we are falling for mr. ranger.maybe? "woi lu ni buat aku tersuka pulak kt mr.ranger"
and soon the sun will come and they will come along. robbing again every single moment that is wasted to anything that again comes to was a chaos madness day with palettes of water coming.

meow meow.
meow meow..
meow meow?!

make this as a profile picture "like"

oblivion, a word for once everyone could relate too. oblivion. a state of being forgotten, a state on one wished never to reach. a state you are capable to change your fate, fate that is what brought you there at the first place. might be a lost love, might be a lost soul, might be a lost friend. don't you just hate fate. don't you just hate how fate works. be at the wrong place at the wrong time. where is mr. rager when you needed him? take me to heaven. im tired of hell and all the beings in it.

Tuesday, November 23

I need it to fly with it.

The stars are burning,I hear your voice in my mind.can't you hear me calling? My heart is yearning,like the ocean that's running dry.
Catch me i'm falling

Lay off
Don’t stray
Well, my kind's,your kind
I’ll stay the same
Pack up
Don’t stray
Oh say, say, say
Oh say, say, say

Wait! They don’t love you like I love you
wait! They don’t love you like I love you

Monday, November 22

come closer come on come closer

vibrations. buzz buzz buzzz ekkokkkeeekkookkk!

shadows comes along when yesterday is a fair day.this movers, are they predictable? maybe.

oish! the angry tummy.fighting for each other.finding their ways to overcome the madness inside of this roadways,lightways,railways,subway form big to small.and it is still fighting for each other.they are fighting for freedom of this holy madness that is so small that they might have to dig 'em a little bit bigger.

1st hour:3.51
final hour:3.54

a fast way for them to be are now free in a small amount my dear!

they trained you well. congratulation, ho ho!

Age doesn't always get on anyones way.
(Kawen muda ke kawen tua ke kawen lambat ke kawen cepat ke semua cakap 'umur bukan lah penghalang cinta') it is true when it's done right but right doesn't mean anything and anything comes to a point of nothing.

What a waste of humanon that keeps on bragging on what they had nothing to accomplish. Does doing the same 'job' gets you everything you want? You can be rich as you want. And oh yes, you are RICH with words too! In fact, you are just a bull trying to get into another group of bulls.

Hey,don't bother much. I am much more wasted then you are or whatever you have thoughts in mind,that's what I am. And then, come to me.say it straight into my face. Come on, you are strong, u are brave, you are rich and powerful aren't you? Come on, ho!

Kalau kau tak faham bahasa inggeris,kau boleh bukak kamus. Kau kan rajin menyelidik macam-macam.

When my letters are related to anyone, I am sorry yet I am not related to anything or anyone. Put all the blame on me.

Friday, November 19

this is the building of romp panties


boy in a head beg.hai!

inhale exhale dupdapdupdap

pounding veins of brains when it is almost a blackout.froze.

starting of getting a huge paranoia? or was it an adrenaline rush? butterflies in the stomach? migraines? confusion? end up hopeless.

this venom inside of hunts down for almost 3 days.the snorting and blowing, suffocates mostly at dim when everything starting to get cold.A was half alive half dying.A had wasted her palettes on comes to cares from G to A.this two fellow,met most of the times.when time doesn't reveal them anything.A was nothing.only thing it have,this tiny feeling that it felt but make a huge thing when it comes to G.sickness,boredom,hunger,losing,failing..whatever! at a moment for every moment G always care for A.doubt envy comes to's second thought was "i think that's just simply stupid",A.G always know how to handle most of the moment.when A was in silence, it's a daydream of outer universe to hold G.A was fly high to find G in wherever it flew.they are nothing.G, the-powerless-god.A,the red-fingered-girl.

what i see, they are in love.well, love is a is something strong that most of us might not know how is the exact way to elaborate this nasty word.they are both to scared to scared to love.when feelings never get a chance to come to them.they run.when their ignorance is a bliss to all the humanon.and thennn.................kosong.godaymit!

Wednesday, November 17

this is ABC


the wreck body,brain and bones.this is a court!

it was cold.winter cold.

few days went by.i went to the shop and buy.i kick i flick i dance alone.the humonon is getting a hold to explode like fire is a cracker.a long-term make loud noise.i hunt a lot of treasures.fakyew!

i evaporate.i am sinking into the cotton was numb as your ass that has been sitting on your "shit" all day long.even could barely hear anything.inside it is so hot.outside it is so cold.oish, how can i mixed it up? and then comes the clear liquid from this holy hole of noisoy.i comes flowing slowly.ahhh the chill.SNORTT!

as a low water palettes coming today, all humans having the for a bitch that's been lost in sick doom, she lay on her back.the halo strikes like a lightning torch.even having the strength to grab a lock of it's black toy.a ring and hang.earlier of"i'm so sick" the prisoner."take care of yourself,really" the god of powerless g.

i see the prisoner went to a stage where he/she was slightly got up and got down in a moment. at times,she/he blackout in few minutes and blackout again."i just want to see he okay out there?" the prisoner. "if you want to go,just go.stop asking me so much questions.just do it you fool!"brainless mind.

kerekkekekeke!!ekkk!! four eyes staring.a wave, and a BIG SMILE! "oh honey!" the prisoners heart.i sent him/her away so i could make him/her day a better day for him/her to get hold on to."i love you" the god of powerless g.i win the case for the prisoner for today.and put a hope to win again.not to high not to low.just get on when it gets on.

some solub and white beads, i drug into my try to get some sleep again. and i was blackout.for a buzz,i started to lose a lot of gas through my eating machine. and i was numb.i am dumb numb.

a goodey kissey and a goodey universe is growing.kebush!

Sunday, November 14

even boys have pms like girls do.

breaking the frozen and when it breaks it melts.chuall's are just like them.when breaking apart.talks alot.attention seeker.wolggggg.i'm mad in chaos of my mind.the fact i want to run.and again to ignore.pinpin pinpin pinpinpin.prpprprprprprrpp.fakyew.

thank you human of monsters for coming to this party.i won't be seeing you soon.

this is sunday.this is chaos day.

this makes me cold play.i'm SHIVERing while LOVERS IN JAPAN are having their tums and beers.I CAN'T TAKE IT.when i am THE SCIENTIST of i am. when everyone says YOU ONLY LIVE ONCE.-.-"i got goose bum all of sudden.

"honey,i want to watch a movie with you"
"i miss eating ice cream with you,my dear"
"love,i think i need to take my bath"
"where u sweetheart?"
"help me save myself"
"take me anywhere you go hun"
"don't leave"
"i'll let you run if you bring me along"
"i feel stupid with this prison"
"i wanted to but i don't know how"
"it doesn't matter whatever when you here"
"oh baby! oh yeah! ahhh ahhh ahhh!!"
"i dream about you"
"i always have yours wrap around me every night"
"i know this is so what ever,but i hope you'll understand"
"i miss you"
"i really really miss you"
"i love you honey"

what i need to do to let me see myself in a better mood? this voice inside my head.why won't you go out there and dance infront? stop suffering me.i know i am are strong that you can take control of what i want to think just did.omaigosh.why are you fighting? i don't understand.this is madness.boys in blues.

and when the spotted light and light twitch. i have a very angry hungry stomach.

entre password:invalid wrong characters

what i see most of my time.when it's by me i got lost in the wonderland and become speechless as i could.aaahhhhhhhhh! what i know how much he hates,he still misery of depression and destruction of dislike or rainbow of clouds.we have no feelings.that's a lie.look at us.kamon human of monsters.come look at us.

Saturday, November 13

pulling the multimillion strings out.kruk.kruk.kruk.

half time.crunch in crunch out.right to left.down and up. like PE, count to 8.and why must 8? "ada ong ma!" yeah man, luck. let see how it ends."everybody,go to the changing room and change!" and we all go piss around town.and one of them black out."we have to give a CPR" and everyone wants to kiss.oish, what is this? i see black.all black and a white screen.tin tin tin tin tin tin pftttttt. weeewookkkwowowkkweekkk.head turns to the right and shut.ting!

Friday, November 12

folding some cotton on that makes you warm and absorb water palettes.

i got blur out.i can still fell those circle color that's been up touching the walls and me.

"bangun,tolong pasang mesin".i got tired.i got instant shot."tolong amek wallet dalam kereta".where that fcuking little red thing i always miss-placed it at this home of all prison.i continue this sick...kroohh..krohh.kroohh...until i fell theres this clear liquid comes flowing through my side face."oh shit,it comes again.ahhh,im too tired".so, this bitch got up and "pasang mesin" so that her clothes are all cleaned up by that machine.

so it went by inside the room.what a mess.i leave it clean and you made a mess.can't you tell that i'm tired? i got stupid enough to do anything else but this? you as for yourself,you are different.u keep on doing the same thing everyday.going to the same place everyday.what was it again? "it's a job,and i got a great job".yeah you can brag all you want.i don't really care much.

and..."take me by the hand.."tegan and sara comes to me.HAHAHA!you are awesome.just like this sweetheart.oish,i really miss that sound.i waves out "sweetheart,sweetheart..tolong i?" i can't really tell much to anyone or even to's just so strong that i got my tongue circling in my's not that i got tangled up in boredom it's just i like being in that space.that mass square fill with white or maybe grey clouds.some fisher.some fire.some ice.some some some.

a song can really make a feelings.ohfakthat.but i guess it comes along to everyone tho.people dedicate,sing-a-long,copy paste and whatever they do.what i hear,is what i wanted to say.i got scared to know a fact that he is going to be time always killed us away that achievement of his is getting just around the corner."honey, i scared".remembering of his head on my digesting system and says "dah brapa bulan ni?".all i can do is's a funny story that a HOMO SEPHIAN had done for me.thank you animal!

oh by the way,our sons is may call him brandy.mari mabuk!

i can't take you anywhere,i could take you anywhere.ohbaby take me anywhere you go.i got lost in this prison.a child story book tells about jesus? is that possible? it apparently did because it had already been published you home!i love my undies.i lve my shit.i like you.i love's all sounded too..tooo....way toooooooooo normal.but there's no words i could find to tell him.and as a scientist i am still searching for good one and let it out.

"omaigut,i want to piss" minds talking.what else to do but ignore.i lazy.i tired.i very very the malas one ya know dwag!

in this other day,i couldn't find him at sight.i think i should go and take a visit like i always did.try to accept this from me,i'm sorry.i tend to do shits because i don't know nothing.and when shits happened my brain are numb enough to move my body.HIT ME!

this is all no ones fault,it is mine.

i get down whit your rough words.
i got up when you come here.

It spins a round and round and fill this air with colored spots.omaigoate!

when it gets darker."yala,aku rindu kat kau la,gila!" what my heart sounds like.i think that is what i really wanted to say.

minding my own,uptight, some juice and strings.can't put much tho i felt like throwing up.even i don't ever thorwn since 1998.i was sick back then and porridge comes in and get out the black and i called but no answers.again.

when it comes, i spark as big as it could get.these what i feel,it's numbs me up.i'm too weak too small not so strong as before.come fly to me my chain.u have my chain.i don't want my chain.i want you.yes,only you that keeps me talking to myself.

we ate,we stoned,we crack,we drink alot,we fak each other and yet we are still together.and it goes,it's like a come on come on to me.take me by the hand and tell me you would take me anywhere.

movie:p/s i love you,abcdorisdorlmnopqrstuvwxyz.

Thursday, November 11

Toys for boys.

Boy love to play with toys. Some boys play with toy cars and vans. They may have garages to put then in. Then there will be toy aeroplanes and ships of all kinds, with which they can play all posts of hands. But perhaps boys like toy soldiers best.
The toy soldiers might be guarding a fort. There will be sentries all around it ; one sentry will be at the top of the tower, where he can see the enemy a long way off. Toys for boys.

It got caught up with the candle.

Something must have been crawling up my brain. It keeps me awake every hour.
By now i am awake and it still crawls. I turn right,i smells the messenger of death.i turn left,i got stab by the halo.i turn down,i cramp up my nose.i turn up,i got it all! Fak.
At a tik,the sounds of the paws outside the window really take an interest. Still, i am frozen,still. Yawwwnnn!
Inside moments,i really want to run from it. All i can do,think,thoughts,remember,wanted or anything that relates was my master piece of art. And the alarm went buzz buzz buzz at 8:30a.m. Friday the 12th.

This isn't Air Batu Campur.


Back then,we don't really think about anything like now days.

The colour of the mobile.pintch some red,green,blue,yellow and love.on the other hand.the spider toy.they are both black.They live in black they sleep in black they charge in black they eat in black.ini bukan black black ini pun pandai berirama.only this is the thing that we don't want to rely on but we apparently did.Take the black butterfly and stab.Oh baby!

Saturday, October 9

this is DICK BANGER!

All that I keep thinking throughout this whole flight
Is it could take my whole damn life to make this right
This splintered mast I'm holding on won't save me long
Because I know fine well that what I did was wrong

We have got through so much worse than this before
What's so different this time that you can't ignore
You say it is much more than just my last mistake
And we should spend some time apart for both our sakes

And I don't know where to look
My words just break and melt.

phrase: make this go on forever

i'm running and you chasing.come run you can lick my sweat.

waking up every morning found out that i'm nothing.i am nowhere.oh yes, you and you and you.all of you with some filthy words of yours.u are something,right? i am nothing.u think your some kind of god? i'm tired,tired to pleased everyone around.too many people taking too many advantage.they think they can control their dogs around them.feed them with money.feed then with bout thinking about yourself,try to be the dogs you are garbage with some wealthy human bones so that you might someday change and become a know those stories where the frog change to a prince? enough with your disease's like vomit in my throat.pheeyeewwwwwwwww...and this thing by a click, M M M M M M M M M M M M M M M M M M M M M M M M M M M M M M M M M M M losssssssssssssssssssstttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt....again.

thoughts: eat shit? eat your own shit bitch. arrgg.

Wednesday, September 29

Work is job. Bankjob is bankwork.

while i was activating my life..chocolate was on her way out talking and mumbling whatever that i don't even understand.and then there's this motorcycle came and stop by.and then there's silence.chocolate came back in to the house and saying about a girl being kidnapped and being rape around this old piece of shit.while she's waiting for maria to come and pick her for myself, I'm flying with the dust that starting to befriend with the spiders.after few tictoks chocolate and maria went out.there are BIG spiders.and it had nothing to do with anything.

Tuesday, September 28

when the night felt so short yet so long.

it's around 1 a.m something, when i was see the shine of the ceiling that is so bright.having thought that he's still by my side.but still, he's so close so near but so far apart. watching yuka trying her best to finish up her design.the tense from her is so strong.strong like sheildtox man, man!! i was by her side just to accompany her and make her feel little bit better.the leads breaking the rubbers shows how hard she's trying.even she said "sepertinya kemahuan menikamkan orang..hak3".you can tell how hard she's trying.all those magazine were flipping back and fort and then...SILENCE!

all of sudden,i miss my home, cabin.i miss my bright little sparks.dor dor dor dor dor, such a thing.i miss every moment to be with dor.when we talked, we laughed, we mourned, we eat, we sing, we dance.yeah! we do dance! haha!i thought he'd leave me when i had the bad dream last night.i was thankful that he's still there still here by my side.those flash,giving me those some amazing and the worst flashback i've ever seen and been's like marley & me. "the worst dog in the world is the greatest among all".i just can't wait to give dor apart of my junk just to make him feel like the white and green light inside the cabin that's been sprinkling at night days. it is fun to see these two light dancing together.dor's been thinking to come over to this hell and get on the flight to see ellis.but then ellis was thinking to go and see him,nor there is still no discussion or conclusion. for a moment, dor was sick and he thinks his head's going to blow up.we're in a tight situation but yet still alive and making through every fucking holeshit days. and in seconds, i am weak....i am blank. thank you and GODAIMAYT!

mind,thoughts: doris dor :)

Thursday, August 19


why you should bother.just try the risk.u can put hope on it.just not to high and not to low.
when u got it, take it slow.enjoy it like the things u did every single day.

ada dapur masak rumput,
masak rumput sampai lupa,
kalau ada hati dan perut,
pandai-pandai menjawab dan berjumpa.

"de, kau ni mcm tak serius tak betul je aku tgk?"